“Alright people, let’s do this one more
time…”
I saw Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse in
December 2018. This was just six months after I met up with a bunch of online
queer friends in person for the first time. I was still so new to navigating
the LGBTQIA+ community, I couldn’t say the word “bisexual” out loud, let alone
comprehend my gender identity. However, getting to be around so many vibrant
queer personalities who actually understood the specifics of experiences I’d
gone through resonated deeply with me. It was magical. It opened up new
horizons for what I thought was possible in everyday existence. It impacted me
so deeply that it skewed my interpretation of Into the Spider-Verse.
For me, this feature and its saga about Miles Morales
(Shameik Moore) discovering solitude in other Spider-people is a beautiful
allegory for found families within queer communities. “And when I feel alone,
like no one understands what I'm going through, I remember my friends who get
it,” Morales says in the final scene of that animated masterpiece. It’s a
terrific piece of dialogue that struck a chord with me and my own experiences
in 2018. It was lonely to go back to Texas after that New York City trip and
have to return to working behind a cash register at Walgreens. I had to be fully
closeted and nervous about ever exhibiting any queer-coded traits that could
set off homophobic customers. But I found comfort in reminiscing about spending
so much time with my queer friends, much like Morales clung to his own memories
with other Spider-heroes. Neither one of us was truly alone with those
recollections of the past.
A lot has changed since both Into the Spider-Verse
opened in theaters and my first in-person exposure to the wider queer
community. Advancements in technology and increasing creative ambitions have
led to the animation of Across the Spider-Verse breaking exciting new
visual ground. Meanwhile, the scrappy Texas native who would quietly murmur
about desires to wear a skirt has turned out to be a trans woman whose now out
to the public as Lisa Laman. With these changes and my own previous deeply
personal queer interpretation of Into the Spider-Verse, it was
inevitable that Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse would also inspire
queer readings in my mind.
This time, though, I’m not alone. The internet has
widely attached itself to the concept of Gwen Stacy (Hailee Steinfeld) being an
allegory for trans experiences. Watching this gorgeous production for the first
time at an advanced press screening, I got allegorically trans vibes from Gwen
Stacy as well as allegorically queer interpretations from other characters and
plot points. However, a second viewing was needed to fully comprehend what was
going on with Gwen Stacy. It was time to dive right into every potential nuance
of this fictional figure and how she could reflect the trans community.
“And he’s not the only one.”
The internet has already fixated on some of the
clearer signals of Gwen’s relevance to trans people, like the colors of her
dimension being the same as the trans pride flag or the “protect trans kids”
banner in her room. However, the trans joys of Gwen Stacy’s plotline in Across
the Spider-Verse go deeper than just those visual traits. Keeping trans
allegories at the forefront of my mind during my second Across the
Spider-Verse viewing, it wasn’t long before my eyes welled up with tears.
The very first scene of Across the Spider-Verse
fixates on a noisy and passionate drum solo played by Stacy by set to a montage
exploring her friend with Miles Morales (Shameik Moore) in Spider-Man: Into
the Spider-Verse. It’s a gangbusters way of kicking off a movie that
immediately establishes the unique visual sensibilities of what’s to come. It’s
also a gloriously maximalist way to get insight into Stacy’s psyche and her
frustrations with her identity, past, and home life. The latter element
involves her father, police Captain George Stacy (Shea Whigham), who is out to
hunt down Spider-Woman, a vigilante he doesn’t realize is his daughter.
This vibrant kick-off to the whole movie immediately
features complicated emotions and colors that evoke the trans community through
delightfully over-the-top methods. This tactic allows Across the
Spider-Verse to subvert the norms of trans representation in cinematic
storytelling. So much of the history of trans folks in cinema has been…let’s be
gentle and say bad. Often portrayed by cis-gendered actors and relegated to
supporting roles where they either teach straight people life lessons or an
object of ridicule, typical Hollywood trans characters have been defined by
tragedy, treated like garbage, and often killed off without much thought. Their
interior lives are never even glimpsed, the idea of trans people being human is
such a foreign idea to the individuals making movies like Dallas Buyers Club.
As a stark contrast, here comes Gwen Stacy, who enter Spider-Man:
Across the Spider-Verse loudly playing her drums and accompanied by imagery
that vividly encapsulates her wants, pain, and emotional turmoil. Stacy is in
the center of the scene, her feelings impossible to miss and her drumming (the
only way she can get her frustrations out) dominating the soundtrack. Other
movies minimize trans lives, but because of Across the Spider-Verse’s innate
visual sensibilities, the movie makes Stacy’s trans-allegorical emotions as big
as any comic book splash page. All those bright colors, all that noise, all
that prominence in the frame, it’s something tragically missing from so many
on-screen depictions of trans people in cinema.
Plus, Stacy isn’t defined solely by her tragedy or
struggles with getting a loved one to accept her identity. Though she navigates
intimate exchanges that will resonate as deeply relatable for many trans people
of various genders, Stacy also gets to fight costumed super-villains, throw out
quippy one-liners, and save people. She gets to an exhilarating idealistic hero
without sacrificing the ways she resonates specifically with trans folks. The
default “passive” trans character in mainstream cinema is a distant memory when
one is watching the allegorically trans Gwen Stacy beating up evildoers and
rollicking through multiple dimensions.
“Can you stop being a cop for just one
minute and be my dad?”
Across the Spider-Verse’s
version of Gwen Stacy resonating as relevant to trans audiences continues even
when the feature slows down its pacing for a quieter, more devastating scene.
That sequence taps into very real emotions of existing as a closeted trans
person (albeit in an allegorical fashion) and concerns Gwen being forced at
gunpoint to “come out” as Spider-Woman to her father.
So many of us in the trans community don’t get a
choice in how we come out. Circumstances far beyond our control force us to
reveal our identity before we’re ready. That was my experience with my mom, who
stumbled on me wearing femme clothes when I was coming home from a date. I
suddenly had to spill my guts about my gender in a scenario that was torn out
of my nightmares. A core part of my identity was suddenly ripped out of my
hands, at least in this one social context, which is utterly terrifying. A part of me that I was having such joy exploring was now connected to sorrow over an impromptu coming out experience. I’m
sure Gwen Stacy could relate to that horror.
Her “coming out” moment to her dad is also the stuff of queer people's nightmare, especially once Captain Stacy reacts with horror to his daughter’s
revelation (he incorrectly believes Spider-Woman killed that universe’s Peter
Parker). “How long have you been lying to me?” the elder Stacy quietly asks his
daughter in this intense moment. It’s a question that many LGBTQIA+ people are
terrified of hearing the moment they open up to a loved one about their
identity. Taking the time to feel prepared to be vulnerable can be misconstrued
as “lying,” which just adds a layer of unnecessary shame to the coming out
process. It isn’t lying to come out on your own timetable. Stacy also taking an
important moment for his daughter and turning it into something that revolves
around him (“how could you lie to ME?”) will also resonate as deeply realistic
for so many queer and trans viewers from their own coming out experiences.
What really got me emotional here in terms of trans
allegories is Gwen Stacy’s pained begging for her father to look at her. Stacy
doesn’t want her superhero identity to drive a wedge between herself and her
father. She loves her dad and just wants support. Captain Stacy, though,
doesn’t see it that way. He sees his daughter as a liar, a murderer, a total
stranger. The stand-in for a trans person here only wants affection, but the
representation of a cis-relative refuses to accept that meager request. It’s a
familial dynamic that will be familiar to many trans viewers, which is an
impressive feat considering this exchange comes just a few minutes after a trio
of Spider-heroes fought a Renaissance-era version of The Vulture. A glorious balance between heightened comic book mayhem and such raw discernible trans-relevant emotion is something Across the
Spider-Verse executes with impressive finesse.
“It doesn’t end well for her.”
Stacy’s storyline didn’t just personally resonate with
me as relevant to trans experiences in her interactions with stand-ins for
cis-people, though. The moment that felt most evocative of trans existence in Across
the Spider-Verse emerged during her first conversations with Morales in
months. Another Spider-hero whose struggles with his identity evoke LGBTQIA+
experiences (just look at a fantasy sequence where Morales imagines an ideal
version of “coming out” as Spider-Man to his parents), it’s no wonder Stacy
finds so much comfort in just shooting the breeze and spinning webs with
Morales.
During a talk held upside down and high in the sky,
Gwen Stacy notes that one thing underlying her dynamic with Moralres is that “every
version of Gwen Stacy falls in love with Spider-Man…and it doesn’t end well for
her.” This is in reference to the famous 1970s comic book issue entitled “The
Night Gwen Stacy Died,” which depicted Stacy’s demise at the hands of the Green
Goblin and cemented that Stacy would be primarily known for her grisly death
above all else. It would take until the introduction of Spider-Gwen in the
2010s for this character to finally gather extra dimensions beyond how her
demise influenced Peter Parker.
Stacy’s lasting legacy of being just a dead body is
clearly lingering in the mind of Across the Spider-Verse’s version of
Stacy. It’s also an entity that parallels how normalized misery is for trans
folks in pop culture. As a trans lady, I’m well aware of how way it so often
feels like grisly ends are a predetermined fate for people in my community,
especially for trans people of color. Our corpses line up the plotlines of
countless crime shows. Our deaths are played for amusement and mockery on
right-wing podcasts and in comedies. Our bodies are spectacles to be either
fetishized or demeaned by cis-people. Aggressive transphobia is just something
that seems to come as part and parcel of daily life, with the onus often put on
trans folks to just tolerate all the cruelty.
With all this dehumanization swirling around in
mainstream society, it can feel overwhelming to even try and exist as a trans person.
Just as Stacy feels restricted by how other versions of Gwen Stacy are
“supposed” to function, so I’ve often been paralyzed with fear over society’s
perception of what trans people look like, sound like, or even are “worth.”
Some days, when news about transphobic legislation is rampant and I’ve had to
deal with another Uber driver who feels free to challenge me about my gender, I
feel like I wanna be like Gwen Stacy: sullen, aloof, detached from everything.
Societally ingrained homophobia and the normalization of transphobia have made
transphobia so rampant that it impacts my mind whenever I leave my apartment.
I’ve often told my therapist that if there weren’t
systemically informed manifestations of transphobia everywhere, so many of my
concerns and anxieties related to being trans would vanish. Being trans isn’t
the problem, it’s how other people and institutions respond to it. Similarly,
Gwen Stacy loves being a Spider-hero, it’s how her dad responds to it and the
larger legacy of other Gwen Stacy’s that casts a dark shadow over her identity.
The complexities of carving out an idiosyncratic identity while dealing with
societal norms that incorrectly say you’re destined for just misery…that’s what
Stacy’s grappling with. It’s also a scenario trans viewers can relate to on a
profound level. Through referencing a famous comic book event, Spider-Man
Across the Spider-Verse delivered its most emotionally potent example of
Gwen Stacy functioning as an allegorically trans character.
“Anything is possible.”
On Friday, June 16, 2023, I went to a gay club for the
first time. Now, I’ve been to a few gay bars (including Sue Ellen’s, the biggest lesbian
bar in Dallas, TX), but not a proper club, with loud music that makes your
muscles vibrate. I didn’t go alone, though. I went with a bunch of autistic
queer friends, all of whom were also trans. Five years ago, I had to travel all the way to New York City to bound with other queers in person. Cut to 2023 and I now have several queer pals in my own backyard. I went out
in a bright pink dress (two different people said I had a “Barbie vibe” going
on, which I was honored to hear), the kind of outfit I couldn't have even comprehended trying on, let alone wearing for hours on end, in 2018. The same woman who was too nervous to say "bisexual" aloud in 2018 was now writhing around on the dance floor with friends, bellowing out lyrics messily, and even just hootin’ and
hollerin’ in joy.
Afterward, I told a dear pal of mine that, sometimes,
I’ve thought that the world would be better without me in it. My thoughts would be dominated by the idea that I’m not
worthy of being seen or that I'm exclusively a burden on other people. I’ve often felt alone and drastically self-critical in my life and for many years I never
had the language to crystallize why. Naturally, I would turn to movies to find
not only escapism but especially a sense of connection. Seeing art about other
isolated outcasts from society reminded me that, even as my brain said that I
was all alone, there were others out there who understood what was happening to
me. Even as I’ve embraced my gender identity and come to terms with larger
psychological conditions that I deal with on a daily basis (namely depression),
I haven’t eschewed all those self-critical or catastrophizing thoughts from my
mind. However, I now have the resources to be myself and at least access moments
where I feel truly happy and connected with other people.
I felt that way on
the dance floor of that club with all my friends that felt Friday night.
I felt that way just a few days ago, when my mom, two years after she found out about my gender identity, was able to nonchalantly chit-chat with me while I was wearing a dress.
And I certainly felt that sensation during my Across
the Spider-Verse revisit realizing just how many of my trans experiences were reflected
so vividly in Gwen Stacy’s storyline.
When you’re able to be seen and connect with others,
well, anything’s possible.
That’s a sentiment Gwen Stacy clings to in the
cliffhanger ending of Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse. In this
conclusion, Stacy and her father reconcile (he quits his police captain job to
protect his daughter) and she makes a promise to the parents of Miles Morales
that she’ll find their son. As she leaves for this rescue mission, Stacy tells
Rio and Jefferson Morales that Miles taught her something important: “anything
is possible.” With Across the Spider-Verse cutting to black on a shot of
Stacy charging into battle alongside other Spider-heroes, we don’t know where
she’ll go next…but she’s confronting the future with hope and other people. The
Gwen we saw at the start of the story, all bottled up and alone, is not the one
that closes out Across the Spider-Verse.
I never thought I’d be able to go to a club. I never
thought I’d wear pink dresses in public. Gwen Stacy never thought she’d be able
to “come out” to her father. She also never thought she’d be able to break the
rules Miguel O’Hara/Spider-Man 2099 established for her. But she can.
As pointed out by Willow
Catelyn Maclay in her own excellent essay on Gwen Stacy
as a trans allegory, there haven’t been a lot of mainstream escapist movies
like Across the Spider-Verse that have featured characters who seem so
relevant to trans experiences. The scarcity of similar big-budget features (exempting
ones directed by the Wachowski Sisters, of course) with such representation is one
key reason why Gwen Stacy’s resonated so much with trans folks. But this ending
makes me think the biggest factor of all that makes Gwen Stacy so relevant to
trans viewers is that she epitomizes the phrase “anything is possible.” There’s
hope there for connection, for autonomy, for visibility. So many trans people
are deprived of those things through a variety of factors, like larger systemic
forces or the living circumstances they were born into.
Through Gwen Stacy in Across the Spider-Verse,
though, trans viewers can witness a character who experiences turmoil relevant
to our lives but also demonstrates a form of hopefulness we can strive for. An
early scene of Stacy and Morales reuniting for the first time in months and
just swinging through the streets of New York City is filled with all the
exhilaration of finding like-minded souls to be comfortable around. I could see
on the screen the kind of joy that filled my veins on my New York City trip
years ago or motivated my feet to keep dancing in that club on that fateful
June night. That upbeat atmosphere tied into trans experiences is no anomaly in
the runtime of Across the Spider-Verse.
By the end of this movie, Stacy is staking out a new
existence far removed from the traditional lives of Gwen Stacy’s of other
universes. “Anything is possible” for this character just like “anything is
possible” within the trans community in terms of the activism we can accomplish,
the ways we express our genders, the joys we can experience, and so much more. I
am always so astonished by the resilience, perseverance, and glorious compassion
expressed by members of a community I’m proud to belong to. These qualities of
a fictional character like Gwen Stacy don’t make the systemically ingrained
challenges facing trans folks immaterial. However, they do remind trans
moviegoers that we’re not alone. That’s a powerful sentiment, as seen by that
fateful final line from Into the Spider-Verse:
“And when I feel alone, like no one understands what
I'm going through, I remember my friends who get it.”
There are countless joys to be uncovered in the
cinematic gift that is Across the Spider-Verse. Given the queer
allegories of its predecessor, it’s no surprise that one of its many virtues is
also resonating as an LGBTQIA+-relevant text. However, nothing could prepare me
for how profoundly this movie’s handling of Gwen Stacy would resonate with me.
It’s always a transcendent experience to see a movie that captures parts of
your reality that you previously never even realized you wanted to see in a movie. That’s an artistic feat worthy of all the synonyms (Spectacular,
Amazing, Superior, etc.) that Spider-Man has taken on in the titles of his comics.
Come to think of it, those same words would be apt to describe the glories of
the trans communities and all the wonders that unfold when day-to-day lives in
this population are reflected in art.